Sketches of my life

From filmfare magazine
A Page from my Diary

Like most of the young girls I loved to paint , sketch, colour,draw .....and  do every thing related to what we call as ART. Never trained formally I took fancy to it as a subject but my sketching was limited to drawings and shadings of T.S. Lungs : Frog or the Floral diagrams of Cucurbitacae,Malvacae and Rosacae. 
Being a biology student had its own share of being able to draw. Though I was deeply interested in sketching I was not the best sketcher for all those T.S. and L.S. of cockroaches, mice and frogs.

From a Korean Poetry book
Neha Dhiman was the best in bio. diagrams . Her fowl's bones diagrams looked as if they were snaps !
 For me no solace was their in Art section also as whenever I peeped in the art files I find ridiculous designs of lamps , tea glasses ,floral creepers and climbers looking completely lifeless and particularly ugly. They were called 'Aayat mein alpana', 'Saree ki kinari' , 'tribhuj mein pushplata' etc. It  repulsed me and I decided not to study art - A BIG MISTAKE. though I realised it later in life.

So much so for the art inclination.

From Readers' Digest
Other problem was if you are not a brilliant scorer and  are interested in drawing and poetry you can well imagine your life as finished! Its quite simple just likes 2+2 = 4 . For starters you are not scoring (leave the knowledge and depth and honesty part) enough ;next you are not least bit  interested in the happening subjects i.e. math and physics and to make matter SERIOUSLY worse is that though you are a bio. student  still you don't want to be a Doctor. And on the top of it you have such abusive interests like painting and poetry!!!  You are something akin to a curse (disgrace is a VERY mild term for u) to your parents.

From newspaper

From a film magazine
Thankfully mummy never even suggested something of this kind still pressure was there.. specially because I was clueless about my interests and capabilities. Though I was keenly interested in literature and art ,I was too much into Darwinism, evolution ,genetics  and embryology also and as per the Super Intelligent Indian Educational system literature and life sciences don't go hand in hand!

Sketch of a  Rajaravi verma  image
 In such an atmosphere it was no miracle that I never EVER dreamt of anything except my curriculum only. Studying art as a subject was not my cup of tea and learning privately was not possible,so I started sketching rather copying whatever I found interesting ...A picture from newspaper, an image from a calendar. anything.. At that time  Readers' Digest proved to be my biggest ally as it used to print beautiful pictures by famous artists on its back cover...My parents and a neighbourhood aunt

Greeting card
were its subscribers and they used to get it in Hindi as  'Sarvottam' so I had a triple collection of RDIs ---  mine, mum's and  the Aunty's .
Aunty's were in hindi and oldies and ours were in English and the latest ones but the paper was good of the old ones . I still treasure them.                                                                                                                                             

 This image of the girl with a rose is from one such edition.

 Being a happy-with-myself-and-life-in-general sort of personality I was very much satisfied with my progress ... from drawing mountain and sunset scenes I have started figures. I was hooked to sketching figures with minimum of background and lots of ornaments. I found immense pleasure in sketching little details of  hair, braids, nose,eyelashes and   the twirls of clothes.

Soap Ad
All this helped me in not only spending my leisure in a creative way but boosted my self-confidence. I was fifteen at that time and was experiencing difficulty in making close friends.

From a magazine cover : Shivaji with Jijabai
The way my classmates behaved -coy and dainty all the time was not going well with me. I had SERIOUS problems with fluttering eyelashes and artificial manners . The coy and sugar-wont-melt-in my-mouth look and sometimes the sudden transformation into fully grownup aunties discussing affairs of families and  shamelessly lying to their 'sworn bosom girlfriends ' for chemistry notes , was too much for me to handle. I was visible miles apart sticking out of the bunch.

 But then who was sulking ?

From a Korean poetry book
I was always ready for a bit of solitary time to sketch ,sketch and sketch to my heart's content. There were times when I found the world cruel but Mum, books and sketches were always there for not only solace but HOPE.

From newspaper
While copying the paintings I used to modify these according to my mood which is generally sunny and happy. So, a sad film actress or a dull picture would become pleasing and smiling .Later I started adding swirls of air either in form of billowing clothes or drapes or twirling leaves and flowing hair.Most of my sketches are happy and smiling...just like me.

 Then,a time came when this hobby of mine took greater hold of me and I pined to Learn sketching in a proper way .But  conditions were not favourable. At that time books were my only solace. My imagination (whatever little I  had) was all dried up . But one pencil and one paper was something I could always manage  from my biology file :).

Interestingly, it was during this particularly low phase of my life, for the first time, I started using colours in my sketches. Without realising it, I was afraid of the gloom, the lack of colour and sunshine in my own life ,so I poured colours on paper. I was attracted towards water, gushing streams and rippled rivers for inspiration and static figures, ornaments suddenly became less interesting.

I sketched colourful and vibrant spring flowers from a watercolours, a radiant rainbow coloured flower filled backyard , a kitchen garden, a sunny window sill and many more.

 I started using colour pencils , crayons even water colours.

 P.S. The sketches in this post are quite old ,are wrapped in transparent sheet protectors so, the images are little hazy and flash is also visible in some.
One or two are in decaying condition still I tam taking he plunge to post these.

No comments:

Post a Comment

Your views make this blog work ...Thanks a lot. :)